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i almost lost it ...
my mind is blank.
whn i was at the hospital i didnt have my phone with me.
i was thinking, who can i talk to? mayb jarrold, no he is studying fo Os. jack too . has too . bird too . nadia? she is in london . ann? she is in new zealand. javin? he is in china. marvin? didnnt wna bother him. yuyang? he's changed. rachel? she isnt free. who? who could i talk to about smth tt HIT me the hardest. i WANTED to talk to someone. to cry to someone. bt my phone wasnt with me. i wanted to call tt someone. thn i thot so hard. whats his number? okay nvrmind think of smone elese's number. i couldnt rmb any. i dont memorise numbers. why. fuck myself why.

now im back. having a terrible headache. i have my phone yet im not calling aanyone.
what is it ... this has nvr happened. im not crying yet. maybe i will cry my heart out after i realise it a few days later. maybe.

i feel like shit. like shit. so terrible. i wna keep keep typing to make myslf feel better. its nt helping at all. its giving me headache..

where are you. where are you when i need you?